DarK ChoCo & MarsH MaLLoWs =)

emevas

2007-01-16T09:24:00.000-08:00

3m3vas13mos.

bangkok trip.

2006-12-12T07:38:00.000-08:00

First time to thailand via swiss airline. Nice view by the window seat on the plane. (=
The air standard over in bangkok is bad.. smelly n polluted. And the toilets, cmi, only hotel toilet den good enough. haha. watched dejavu ere. nice show, but expensive. The siam paragon ere is very big n beautiful, own vivocity. ahha. Branded stuffs in bangkok are very expensive man.. comparable to singapore prices.... not worth...

ate alot over ere.. all in food courts n restr.. cant stand food stalls by the road, too too dirty i think.. later lao sai den die.. haha.

Bought a levi's jeans ere, fbt singlets n shorts for my workouts... some t-shirts and shirts and board shorts all together for only 150 like tt. ahha. very cheap (=

ya. like tt. The 5 days over ere are very relaxing, really holiday, eat sleep shop watch. thats all.. IF only got one more den shoik. haha. MAHJONG of cuz. ahha.. but i went to the gym in the hotel ere.. VEry ex, but ya, just to see see.. the gym ere is not as well equiped as here in sg. sighs.

2006-10-15T21:29:00.000-07:00

A's coming. Am i prepared? Maths shld be ok, not a prob. Chemistry shldnt be that hard too, will be fine. Physics is the one to be worried abt, but 17 days more to go, put in more effort, shld be doing fine alr. But, GP, still, i haven work much on it. I did put in effort so far, but still insufficient. I hope to finish my revision with chem n phy asap so i can focus on Gp earlier..

Shld be it bah.. judging from my results from last yr till this yr, the A lvl shld not be much of a prob.. i must ve more confidence..

post prelim

2006-09-17T04:02:00.000-07:00

bored. It ve been so long since i last blog.. too lazy n busy to blog.. either studying or lazy. haha... these days im still e same, gymming, studying... just tt im more interested in swimming.. quite fun, but tiring.. too lousy. swim too slow. hai..

Im beginning to think wad can i do.. so much time, yet nothing much to do.. even prelim is over, i think that im alr fully prepared for the A's.. cant wait it to be over, but den i wun know how to spend my time after the A's.... hai.. bored. bored......

23-8-06

2006-08-19T06:49:00.000-07:00

That's the day i need to report to pasir ris camp. For an exercise for them to choose potential commandos. haiz.. very very anxious. As the date draws nearer, i need to get myself mentally prepared, physically too. i will stop my trainings on monday. latest.. to let my muscles to heal..

Oh. speaking abt friday's mock exams for maths.. I feel that it is not as easy as i think it will be. But, i think the actual prelim standard for SA wun differ much from that paper.. Also, i feel that i shld not be scoring less than 90 for that mock paper. Too bad, my teacher will not be returning the paper b4 prelims.

I ve yet to receive my Food chem test too, n the stats test. I wanna see how i did.. argh.. faster return la.... Anyway, last night i went to play mahjong. i think it will be the last game b4 my exams le.. Nice game..

Study. yes. i must study hard liao. I must believe, believe i am myself, so i can do it. Come on. 3As Again.

fixing a broken heart.

2006-08-03T07:35:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. ive found the answer. The cure. That is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GYM AND RUN AND DRINK!!!! HAHA

It's simply amazing to see how my muscle grew and how i get stronger. My aim is not to grow BIGGER, but more of to get STRONGER. To have more strength. haha.. Going to the gym regulary is the best way to achieve my aim. Recently, or i should say since the holidays, i ve begin to go hit the gym at least twice a week, and sometimes up to thrice or more a week. Having a regular workout allowed my muscle to grow faster and get more packed up. Hmm. Now, my agenda includes runnning too. This is to prevent gaining of weight. Some may say that it is unavoidable to gain mass if we are to gain muscle. But, i hoped to convert the fats to muscle and also lose weight. So far, since january, ive gained 2kg. Which is dunno bad or good. My weight used to go down to 71kg easily, but now, it's kind of stucked at 72 and 73. Hai. so i hope my runnning will help me to lose fats and burn my excess carbo..

I realised that drinking a can of red bull b4 workout gives me more energy to do weights. TAking a shower after workout simply relaxes and masssges my muscles.. Very nice, like hydro therapy or wad.. haha.. Den drink a can of freezing jolly shandy after the bath.. EVen better. haha. all these for less than $5. And i could have a fulfilling and happy day. Fulfilling that ive workout and hopefully get stronger n lose weight. Happy that im closer to my target and that the drinks i drank, the workout i did, simply helped me to feel relieved and shoik!!!! haha...

SO, guys out ere.. heed my advice.. hehe.. follow my lifestlye.. and u will be HAPPY!!!!!!!! MUCHAHAHAHAHAH

hai

2006-07-31T09:16:00.000-07:00

ive started running again. Hope to run every alternate days. I need alot determination. haiz. Even if i take sweet food or oily food, most importantly i ve to exercise to burn off the excess energy. =)

Hope this fri dance rapture will be nicer den than choir concert =)

Need to read up chemistry notes soon.ive finished chaper 1 to 14 of physics... need to do some maths soon... ya.. den after the 11aug food chem test, den i ll start to read up physics again.. soon, i ll study chemistry...

these days, i will try to utillise my time in sch to do as many work as possible.. so i can slack abit at home. looking at the rate others are studying, im beginning to wonder if ive study too little.. sighs.

2006-07-19T07:26:00.000-07:00

Oh thinking abt our younger yearss....

Haha.. a glimpse of my past. heh. cute leh. cant believe it.

U see, i eat so much in the past, till like that. Den just 3 months of diet plan, n den im now like tt alr. good rit?

So, at the end of the day, is consistency in everything that important to guarantee success?? I dun think so.. I think that happiness is the most important. Just be happy can liao. =) =) =)

I believe this photo will inspire many to learn from me. i ll teach u ALL> MUAHAHAAHA!!!

2006-07-16T08:12:00.000-07:00

CARBOHYDRATE:

mono-S : glucose, fructose, galatose

GLucose: @-glycosidic bond, aldehyde deravative. reducing sugar( due to presence of -OH on aneromic carbon)
Fructose: B-glycosidic bond, ketone deravative. reducing sugar( due to presence of -OH on aneromic carbon)

tbc. tired.

mono,di,oligo saccharides

2006-07-15T07:06:00.000-07:00

FOOD ChEm... u are so so so tough ok.. bloody hell.................

I feel sad. ok. Imagining that u are walking into a cafe. U ordered a cup of tea. As usual, u will be served together with few packets of sugar n cream. Although u have a habit of low sugar intake, u still accepts those. U then drink ur cup of tea without adding sugar n cream. And u left the cafe afterwards. Guess what. i feel exactly the same as how the packet of sugar is feeling.
Ok. i think i studied food chem till mad alr.

Physics

2006-07-04T05:23:00.000-07:00

y i get this kind of grade? i dun understand, negative returns. forget it. i shall continue to work hard for prelim den.. I ve no idea why i didnt cry when i saw the disappointing grade... This is weird man.. nvm.... forget it..I ve only maths left to depend on. IF i dun get a high A for MAths, i think i shld stop studying alr. stupid man sia..

block test2

2006-06-29T20:58:00.000-07:00

It's over. time for world cup and mapling. den go on to study for prelim again.. haiz

ups n downs

2006-06-16T08:52:00.000-07:00

My weight fluctuating like hell.. one moment it's *0, the next moment it's *2. I cant take it, whenever i lose weight n was light, i take things lightly n eat all i want. eat eat eat.. very happy, very nice very shoik.. These days, i feel like eating everything in the world, chocolate fudge ice cream, peanuts, cuttlefish,all sweets, chocolates, bread, instant noodles, prawn crackers, red bull, biscuits, carrot cake, and alot more.. argh.. end up.. now im heavy again.. still rmb b4 the hols, im also this weight, i ran n ran n ran and control my diet, hao bu rong yi become *0, den just two weeks , just two weeks of hols n im heavy again... so, i decide to eat less again.. i realise that this is like a cycle, not stop one.. argh... i ran for 30mins on wed, ran 1.6km yesterday n 23mins today.. die.. leg muscles are aching.. think ive gotta rest for 1 day. 1 day will do, cant rest two days, or else will lose the momentum to run.. ok.. world cup starting.. btw, i ve to congrats yuan ing, for finding out the answer from his dream(L)over, yea. he can be a happy man n study again. He will not need to be bothered n sad abt it anymore.. cheers.. take care everyone, as we move on to the last week of june hols.. Im waiting for 20th june to come. =) ily sq

LIke what i say relax.

2006-06-12T09:29:00.000-07:00

Somethings are not meant to think now. Things will get better over the time. Like ppl will be willing to scarifice things for somethings so essential by that time. People like me will den hope that others will also be willing to scarifice as much as i could for them. If not, den let things be that way. THERE IS A WILL, THERE IS A WAY. So things will work out as long as we have the heart for it. yup. relax now, dun think so much. Everything will be fine. Thats all i can say. Happy happy today=) full moon today again. 3 full moon so far.. nice..

holiday mood.

2006-05-23T03:46:00.000-07:00

haha.. very long nvr blog alr.. yuan ing say what happy man wun need to blog. hmm.. not true.. just tt lazy.. haiz... FInally june hols is arriving!!!!! can slp more, can revise work, can go out n play oso. =) i think it ll be the best june hols i ever spend bah..

CO june camp coming too.. hope most pp will go, if not i dunno what to say. everything is ok now le.. waiting to see how many ppl going only.. ya.. ok.. bye!

where is the enthuiasm

2006-05-04T06:32:00.000-07:00

Where have all the enthuiasm gone to? It disappeared. I cant see, cant feel.. The feeling is gone for sure. Nothing can save this man. im throughly disappointed. Lets see what we can have in the June camp. Everyone likes to study, dun even bother abt this anymore. Just dun understand why u ppl become like this. It's not like ur change will make things better. I cant do anyt. nvm. let it be lor. i heck le..

PW = band 3

2006-04-13T10:17:00.000-07:00

i bet 60% of the pp studying in SAJC, the 2005 batch will be very very unhappy with their results.. i dunno what to say. is the teachers fault? or is it our fault? i dun dare to say it here.. really * man

anyway.. no mood le la.. other sch did much much much better den us in PW.. tio handicapped liao la.

unlucky

2006-04-06T06:38:00.000-07:00

i dunno what to say.. unlucky bah. everywhere we go...

Nvm.. today went bishan gym with mr henry, nice workout today, did alot of things, i think bishan gym is much better den sch's one, more machine to work on. shoik.. did alot of bicep curls and chest workout. i thing tml sure have bad muscle aches.. sighs. oh ya, after gym, we went to swim oso, haha.. 30 mins like tt.. not bad leh me, didnt bring goggles today, so i close my eyes n swim. i think i swim like tt is much better den with goggles, at least i will not worry if others are laughin at me or wad lo.. haha.. but, i swim very out of path, almost moved 2 metres away from where i start, i think like 2 lanes off.. haha

So far, still haven start to run. nvm. tml im running with chenyang, hope will run and not like wednesdays, see too many pp on the track so nvr run. haha.

haha. i passed my Gp, 47 marks, got a C6. So my accumulated rank pts is 62 now. ha. same as promos, no improve no drop. Just tt this time my chemistry did better, but Gp lousier.. ya lor..

hmm.. k la. nothing much to say le.. very sian.. oh ya.. announcement regarding the co concert.. think im going to make it on monday. die alr.. hope i can ask someone to take my place. haha

HOPE IS ... ...

2006-04-02T07:54:00.000-07:00

Haha.. I dunno what to say. kena banned for 1 month is quite sad. But i think still ok la.. At least can still see each other around. hmm, im trying to slow things down, hope it will give each other more time and fresh air to breath and relax. No pressure, no stress, better rit? haha.. innauhix

hmm.. zhiyang won the campus superstar.. me happy. He is the one i know tt will win right from the start.. My prediction is right, song! haha. nice voice plus cute look = winner, luckily renfred didnt win, if not super unfair.. yep

anyway, ive made up my mind,cut down on weights training for the whole of april, perharps some light weight endurance trainin at home n push ups, i wanna run run run.. wednesday n friday my lessons starts at 915, so i can run in the morning on the track, want to run 12 rounds of the track every wed n fri, den on monday or tuesdays, mb i will do weights training bah, once a week of gym and twice a week for run. I MUST MUST MUST MUST MUST run on wednesday and friday morning, in order to lose weight, MOKKY! GO GO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i aim to hit 68kg by end up april.. CAN DE!!!! jia you!!! ily.

L.O.V.E

2006-03-31T06:55:00.000-08:00

LOVE. what is it? Im confused. Can someone explain to me the difference between love n like? thanks alot..

Anyway.Hmm, i got A for chem. So i got A for Phy chem n maths. ya, im very happy. Secured 60pts. =) But my Gp, unlikely to get C6, prepare to stop counting alr. Think 60pts will be what i get for Bt1 bah. haiz.

I will be patient for this de. Soon, i believe. =)

why i wun learn to be satisfied with things?

2006-03-28T04:09:00.000-08:00

I dunno whats wrong with me.. seriously. i Didnt put in 100% for this bt, i only like 75%?? i didnt really study for like 10 to 6 like last time when i prepare for my promos n Ct, den i still expecting myself to do very well.. although i can roughly estimate how much i get le, but still i not happy, is like, i must top the subject or b the top few, den i will be happy like tt lo.. i dunno whats wrong with me..I like to compare compare n compare.. i just cant get it off my mind! i dunno why... I alr got the As i want, but i still wanna get high high above the rest, but mok, mok mok.. u didnt study hard enough, so stop kpkbkpkb le.. i think others will be sian of u oso.. pls,be contented and live on.. START To be attentive in lectures, start to do tutorials again, start to wisely use ur breaks in sch to study, so u dun need to study tt much at home can rest. ya..

This time i feel tt im so close to getting triple A's.... My physics alr 82%, my maths i expecting more den 80 too, Chem mb will get low low A, if not den B le. But yet im so sad moody.. Ive been eating alot alot ese days. Keep on eating for no reasons, full oso eat.. heck la.. Just hope eating these days will make my feelings better..

And for the thing, i think i shld be more independent.. shld learn to live alone, shld learn to be scare oso, learn tt anything can happen, this way everything ll be better rit? sound abit stupid, but, thats wht she thinks too, wad can i do? Nvm la. Soon everything ll be better la .. i believe...

Again, im still sick of CO, freaking hell hope i can annouce i step down n ask someother ppl to take over.. If im given the chance, i ll do so. Shall end my journey here, seriously sick of it. I dun mind giving up on this leadership position n graduate without it written in my cert. i hope i can stop all ese now.Be a normal member n live a normal life.

Lastly, i will end with this statement from roland lee..."
you cannot deceive yourself, you know you have done well,U must not always be happy only when the impossible is attained" Mok, u must learn these words.. ok?

shi qu di ping xian

2006-03-26T08:18:00.000-08:00

Yes. Ive never got this feeling b4. First time so happy..So happy tt u trust me so much. =)

anyway.. bought a new Crumpler bag today for $179.. spent alot on it.. Hope i will use it wisely n properly, n cherish it. =) haha... BLUE BAG!!!!! nice nice. super super BLUE!

yay. bringing it to sch tml. so guys, watch out for my baG!!!haha

tahan.

2006-03-25T07:39:00.000-08:00

The word u teach me. Im trying. im learning..I ll expect less so more happy. =)

TMl going to buy new bag. my white bag cmi. too fast dirty, i cant let it diry further, must change bag... buying crumpler... blue one i think, if not green...

Me hoping my Maths C to get more den 90. Pls let me get it.. IF not let me get A for Chem.. either one.... not nothing at all...

okay.

2006-03-24T04:47:00.000-08:00

Looking into ur eyes. heartbeat very fast, very nice. I asked myself qns on why i like u, but tt moment, i cant seem to find e ans. weird. But, i know that u r e person i like, and etched to my heart.

hmm. snacking is good. shoik. ahaha. but really, only once a while or else will fat and die. muchaha.. ok.

BLOCK TEST 1

2006-03-21T20:06:00.001-08:00

heh. Block test 1 finish liao.Now, i ll tell u guys how i think of the papers..

Firstly for GP, i only studied for science n technology, so i did the qns 8 on " too fast too furious, does this accurately describe scientific advances?". Ya. i find this qns quite ok. Anyway oso not much choice.. I think i wrote quite ok, shld be can pass. Den paper 2 on comprehension. this one is hard for me, unlikely to pass. I dunno what to write for the summary, and basically i dunno what am i answering to each n every qns. Die alr. GP overall hard to pass. SAD.

Ok. enough of GP, it sux.. Move on to PHYSIC. my teacher alr told me wad i get for MCq alr. 18/25, not very impressive, above the avg of 14.5. Den the whole paper was still ok, didnt have much time to do. No time to check throough the paper. So, dunno if my qns got any careless mistakes or not. sighs.... I have quite some hope to get A for this paper, i counted several times, but but, not very zhun la.. dunno. Hope can la. really hope... Physics leh. If i nvr get A, i ll quite sad...

Moving along, CHEMISTRY, it was rumoured that this is the hardest Block test 1 paper so far in SA before the paper started. End up, really, it was hard. But not hard to the extent that cant score. I didnt study much on organic chem, esp on nitrogen compounds, end up section D got a 7 mark qns on it, die, i think all wrong. PLus section C, the NMR spectrum qns, i solved it 3/4,got 2 compound, D n G cant find.. PLus here and ere marks lost, i think very hard to A. Somemore this paper is upon 75, 1 mark have more weightage. ya.. sianzzzz..

Lastly, MATHS-C, which is what i just sit for 2 hours ago.. This paper certainly have more standard over last yr promos, my tutor says tt last yr promo paper for MATHS-C is crap. LOL.. i oso think so, abit too easy last yr. Ehhs, this paper time just nice only. Oso i didnt have time to check thru. The Ans for the qns all very weird weird one, no nice nice ans. SO very scared i got do wrong.. So Far i think im most Confident of getting A for MAths-C, Unless my careless mistake is alot, like last year Common test 1 which i just scrap a B, It shld be no prob for an A.

Ya. sianzz.. released at 10am for maths paper, gotta wait tilll 3pm for CO prac.. Now tt ive given away my CO room key, i feel so sian, cant go ere slack, slp n play anymore like the past.

And hor, 1 week of study let me forget abt the my president post in CO.. Somehow, studying makes me forget abt the commitments in CO. really, im kinda sick of whatever tt is going on in CO. Concert is very close le, yet the standard is not ere. Attitude tt pp give is like crap, except for some. Looking at the facial expression of the ppl, somehow im so discouraged n so sian.. didnt even want to proceed to do this concert in the first place this yr.. but, as u know... nvm.. dun wanna elaborate. u all shld know why.. Mb, at least, for my comm, we ll have something to aim n achieve for during our term, but, but, so far, i dun see any cooperation, any communication. not much.. Im leading a poor comm, u know why? Cuz im poor, im lousy. Thats the underlying reason why CO nvr improves, cuz of prez like me.

yup. J1, u all buck up.. soon take over, den relieve me. thanks....

Now, so sian, dunno what to do when exams are over.. WHen revising for EXam, i feel so sian. Now over le, also sian. dumb rit..

BLOCK TEST 1

2006-03-21T20:06:00.000-08:00

impressively

2006-03-18T08:11:00.000-08:00

WONDERFUL LIFE MOK!... pp are studying n u are slacking for almost half the hols.. sighs!!!!!!! only 4hours of study a day... where got enough!!!!! tsktsk... must jiayou.. cant gu fu zhong wang lo. haha

Mok. well done. After 3weeks of rest, i managed to maintain my 2.4km timing. which is quite impressive.. 2.2km for like 9min59secs? i think quite ok la.. still haven break tt 9min 56 record, but under 10 is good le. haha..not really sure tt the road is 2.2 or more.. hope is more.. haha..

anyway.. Me didnt studying much from Sunday to wednesday.. only start to pick up the pace on thurday.. i know i have not put in much effort for this BT.. cuz stressed by that Co concert, preparation,haiz.... Some more i have not much motivation for it.. Untill wednesday, den i realised tt i must do well in order to prove my worth. =) at the least for .

Anyway, studying with my Friend at kovan macs today was quite productive. quite good. Walking is also very good. walking is e best think to do after cycling and running. haha.. me enjoy every moment under the sun walking running or cycling. =)

Bt will last till wednesday b4 i go back for CO practice.. shld be very fast. I think i wun fall off BBB for my chem maths n physic. shld be la. 65 marks shldnt be tt hard to get rit? i hope so, as for 75 to get A, i think it's tough.. my Aim for this BT is BBB la.. IF paper are easy, i think ABB or AAB shld be can.. AAA leh.. haha.. This is the test which i put in the least effort, we shall see... from ABB to AAB, now without Fm, will it be AAA?? hAHA......

U'll GOTTA PRAY FOR ME. Den I'll treat u all ICE-CREAM!!!!

Muchahahahaa

2006-03-15T09:32:00.000-08:00

haiz. she(hue).. she ruin my lunch... totally.. i dunno wad to say... running ard is tiring.. hao bu rong yi go macpherson eat, den saw her, gotta ZHAO!!!

den end up very hungry for the rest of the day.. thanks lor.. thanks..

anyway. today im very happy. It's just something biao da bu liao, jiang ye jiang bu chu.... ya. just a very nice feeling.. but it's yi ban po hui by hue. ARGH...

today oso heard from chris abt his family prob. very sad.. his mother disappear for 6 days alr.. sad rit?.. shall not say too much.. ya chris.. take care, hope everything is fine..

E=mc^2 =)

SAN YUE LIU Ri

2006-03-12T22:21:00.000-08:00

=)

2006-03-12T02:29:00.000-08:00

You scored as Shy. Your shy. Lots of people are. Please rate my quiz!!

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50%

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50%

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44%

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I think so tt im shy. hmm, As for fun and immature, i oso think so.. Im not a very fun person, and neither am i immature.

wth is this.

2006-03-11T06:25:00.000-08:00

i cant believe it. such things still exist.It's quite hard to believe that this is untill this extend. This will be so tough on me. But, im sure i'll be able to sort this out.

Dun worry. it will be fine mok.

Study hard for bt one.

Offically a FM dropout

2006-03-10T03:38:00.000-08:00

Ok.. im offically a fm dropout student liao.. 3 subber, haha but with 2 spaper, think soonner or later i will also drop my Physic S. see how... i cant stand mechanics in FM, i didnt complete a single tut of FM mechanic lo.. the most i did only 80% of the first 2 tut.. the rest i didnt do le.. no interest. i have more more more interest in statistic.. im also thinkin tt my future career will also be something to do in related to probability n statistic..

I dunno whats wrong to me.. Feeling stressed over the CO concert.. preparation. The standard of CO, how ready we are for concert. things like tt... It's till an extent that i feel my studies is somehow affected.. i dun know why im not aimmin for excellent grade for this block test one. im not aimming for wad 90 80 plus marks le.. i think very hard le... given the amt of work i put in.. the no. of lects i pon this yr is more den last yr le.. i very lazy, thou i still continuously do my tut, but, sloppy. not attentive in lects too.. sad.....

lastly.. hai. i dunno how. is it a wrong feeling? i dun think so bah. It's correct one. what ive done so far is rit de.. except my effort for Co, i think i didnt put enough.... stressed

WE ARE STRUGGLING IN LIFE EVERY MOMENT

2006-03-07T05:58:00.000-08:00

Liang mong told me this. I still dun get it. But, i believe he have his stand when he say this.

mok ar mok. Things in life must let go, ur FM, ur CLAO, even if u have to let go ur S paper. dun think too much abt ACeing here n ere.. being too competitive is not good. know ur limits, allow urself to rest.. no more mechanics perharps. ( it sux)

mok. be patient. even if it is not what u want, so be it. Not everything in life is smooth sailing. Since u r blessed with so many good things so far alr, learn to be content, live ur life without regrets.. like wad dumbbell say. even if i got to die now, i wun regret. i must achieve this lo.

ya. to everyone reading my blog, jia you for BT for j2's, for j1, pls practice hard during march hols.

2006-03-05T06:05:00.000-08:00

Went to study with dre in the afternoon. seems like it's a bad day to study.. only 1hr plus, den we went to talk instead.. from 530 till 615. den decided to go town shop for bag.. haha.. cuz i just got my allowance.. decide to change bag. went orchard to see see.. go wisma rip curl ere, bags are ex and not my taste..den go far east. enter ZINC that shop... den saw a white sling bag... nice, tried den buy le. hope it fits well with SA UNiform..

dre bought a bag too.. like a monk bag.. but it discipate a fresh feeling.. think he will look good in it.. haha.. gna surprise pp in sch tml. Yea. thats all... something's on my mind, shld i gain more control over it? i shld think what i wanna do and control it instead of letting her pushing me...

ICE no more

2006-03-03T04:23:00.000-08:00

After some time, i realised that the path im taking is endothermic... Given ICe condition, the rate im progressing will be very slow, and i will be REVERSING instead. I shld take in HEAT instead of Ice, so that i will be able to Use the heat energy to favour forward Reaction..

Hence, i think i shld HEAT up, ice no more.

Gen know( from chemical equilebria) : High temperature favours forward reaction as it increase both the rate of forward and backward reaction If the forward reaction is Endothermic. According to Le chateliar P**!$$%# AKA LCP law, in order for the system(me) to oppose the high temperature i will use up the heat energy and thus being more endothermic and progress..

haha.. enough of chemistry.... but, still chemistry is the word. i believe.

anyway. CO concert is approaching, block test is around the corner. So, study hard bah everyone.. and pls pls.. practice hard for Co concert too. Do try ur best.. i gotta praise those cellos junoirs, today they practiced till 6.30, 1h30mins more.. pro... but, that is wad I hope everyone can follow... DO conTINUE to practice hard guys.. jia you!!

jav

2006-02-25T23:07:00.000-08:00

Missed u guys. Very long never get together to K alr.. Yesterday each of us took out our precious time to meet up. Hmm.. can say is good la. But something is missing. Nvr mind, i think soon it will get better. Enjoy every moment together.

Im glad that the CO juniors are helping us with the Concert thing. Its good to get them involved, not only becuz the J2's are busying with Exam, but also to make them feel part of the Co even more.

Im quite unpleased with things pp do these days, their actions, words they say and so on.. Something is wrong with me. I may not confront that person to tell him/ her abt it, but i will keep myself from that person.

ME

2006-02-21T05:26:00.000-08:00

Im the most ying xian, most jian zha.. im a metrosexual....someone very very image conscious..
im so image conscious tt with a few white hairs i freak out like hell...
im a impatient person and i cant wait.. i flare up very easily.. im like so gan xing yong shi that i let my emotions affect my work. Someone who likes to push away responsibility, not dependable....

All these changes... why why why...

2006-02-19T00:11:00.000-08:00

EAT EAT EAT EAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ive been eating too much. haha. mb due to the power training thing last week, draining my energy. really super hungry after each gymming section. i need to try to control my diet. to gain muscle and and lose weight, not to gain weight too..

need to start revising for Bt1 le. i can do it de..

Chemical Bonding.

2006-02-18T07:25:00.000-08:00

ICE
- Each water molecule contains 2 H atom and 1 O atom. Each O atom form 2 double bonds with each of the 2 H atom. This cause O atom to have 2 lone pairs of electron left. Since O atom have high electronegativity, and it is attach to H atom, this allow Hydrogen bond to be form between water molecule. Each O atom is able to be bonded with 2 neighbouring H atom, hence 2 hydrogen bond can be formed from each molecule of water. This way, there will be 2 bonds of hydrogen bonds and 2 bonds of covalent bond in each O atom.

H/w, due to the different bonding strength, the covalent bonds length will be shorter den the hydrogen bond length. Since the water molecule are bonded tetraherally, the longer hydrogen bond in the tetrahedral arrangement causes water molecule to have a fairly 'open' structure.

Due to this open structure, there is larger space between molecules and thus ice have a lower density den water, so i can oso float on water. This is also why ice will expand when freezes

HARDNESS- the presence of the hydrogen bonding cuz ice to be resistant to penetration.
CONDUCTIVITY- due to the immobility of the atoms, it is a poor conductor of electricity, but in molten state, it is a good conductor of electricity.

Ice, u are hard, strong, but weak in the inside due to the " space". If i have determination, i will be able to break thru the barrier. Once i manage to MELT u, u will be easier to conduct. =)

2006-02-17T07:50:00.000-08:00

im getting more and more impatient. Im more likely to get angry over simple issues this week.. Giving bad attitudes to others. To those whom ive offended, sorry. However, due to stress and some problems, ya. hope u all understand..

2006-02-12T04:05:00.000-08:00

Yi ge duan xun zu yi rang wo xiao kou chang kai, rang wo fan hui kai xin de qing xu.

Ni zheng de rang wo you jing, you qi, you nan guo, you kai xin.. 36 ge xiao shi zi nei rang wo gang shou dao ge zhong bu dong de gan shou... xiang shi 7 or 8 hui de chao qi chao luo.. hai.. zui zong, jie ju hai shi man chu hu yi liao de.. xie xie ni!

xiang yuan ing suo shuo de, man gong chu xi huo and yu su ze bu da.. Think i shld be less impulsive in future. like what liangmong say. be patience. im lacked in this area.. thanks for guiding me. THrough this, i learned to be more patience. ty

what is this?

2006-02-11T22:50:00.001-08:00

i dunno. what am i doing? i dunno.

2006-02-11T19:59:00.000-08:00

As usual, pp are late for practice on SAt again. I didnt wanna raise my voice to spoil the moods of those J1s. really sian, if this continues next week. im sure i will give everyone warning. including j2s comm pp. sometimes they also will walk in only when it's time, but not 15mins or wad b4 practice.

ECP outing was bad to me, seems to be nice for the others. No one knows why im sad. but as usual, i didnt talk much with them as we walk over to ecp. Prefer to think abt things, looking ard, walk slowly.

after tt, didnt eat with them, went over to my class buffet. IT was great to see roy house.. he have been a great host. thanks alot roy!! den got mahjong, cards, games and food.. overall i will rate 7/10.. good good.. very tired yest.. cuz thurs i went gym, den ran 4k, den friday did weights, and oso ran 4k. den sat morning so early wake up for practice, very drained..reached home at 11.45.... immediately slp till now.. hai..

still no reply. wth is this. my emotions is swinging like mad. i understand what does Moodswing means now.. really SWINGING

Ok. time is up

2006-02-10T03:58:00.000-08:00

Ok.Ive realised tt my persistance will be in vain no matter how hard i try, cuz a simple request i've made is denied. Perhaps not offically denied, but silence means it. There is no point for me to stay this way.. from any angle i look at it, i just dun see the reason i shld wait for it.

Wo zuo kan yu kan shang kan xia kan, zhe me kan, i oso think tt im too foolish. Practically unworkable for ppl like me. So, two word. GIVE UP. move on. move to wad? haha.. so many J1's in school now, i shld turn and find some J1 instead i think, more shi ji. haha..

i SHall pirortise things i wanna do now.
1) GYM!!!! gym so i can beat SHIyan in arm wrestling, so i can be STRONGER!!!!
2) RUN RUN RUN, to lost weight.
3) COCOCO.. train hard for suona, do e concert well. get more J1's. bond em together.
4) Study hard. physics and Chem must be at least 98percentile!!! Maths must be 100TH percentile

haha.. today heard that mathsC testing on AREA volume, trap rule, differential, vectors, complex and PNC only.. hmm. think it wld be easy.. need to aim at least 90... JIA YOU AR MOK!!!! AAAB is my BT1 aim!!! anything lesser than 2A i can go die alr.

2006-02-09T06:11:00.001-08:00

enjoy ur life. Know ur pirorities. Dun think too much. Dun over-do. Never do stunts. simplicity is the word. Boredom is unwanted. Fufilling is what my life must be. contented is what i shld feel. Expecting is the word which i shldnt even think abt. WANT- is not necessary, NEED- is all that i shld own.

However, I do HOPE we can be friends.

It took me so long to understand.Understand the responses u've made indirectly. H/w, nvr qi nei am i. Still go for a try if im given a CHANCE. Will god bless me with the perfect one?? I hope im still able to catch hold of the chance, if given.

Other than tt, im really sick n tired of this. Im plain dumb. Placing 40% of my feelings into some stupid, uselss things. Things i shldn't focus on now, most importantly something that have a probablility of more den 0.9 of not being reciprocate.. So. so so.. nvm. mok is blur. but soon, he will not b.

2006-02-09T06:11:00.000-08:00

MOK!

2006-02-09T02:53:00.000-08:00

I've been gymming for the past 3 weeks. Thou haven see the improvement that much, but certainly, ive become abit stronger, abit at the least. Cant believe After much training, my arm wrestling is like still almost on par with wong bin.. SCary. challenged him in class on wed, thought i can easily beat him, but no!! i used almost full power to play with him.. hai. think i need much much more training.. need to gek gek gek everytime i do gym. ARGH!!!!!!! WHY IM STILL SO FUCKING WEAK.......

And one BIG PRob.. MY abs, the weakest part in my whole damn body.. seriously need to train.. but im just so lazy to train tt part lo.. sighs... I wanna train lat, train bicep,tricep, quads, pectorial, chest muscle, trapezius, deltoids, and everything!!!!!!! argh.. and running oso, to continue to hit my target of 68kg.

last but definitely not the least, i must study hard. Complete tutorial b4 time, plus do tys and revise everything b4 march hols... ALL THE WAY. MUGGING MUG MUG.

P.

2006-02-05T03:18:00.000-08:00

Im so so not into the mood of doing tutorials.. Esp saved today, sunday to do HW, But i cant even tackle one Qns of mechanics on equilibrium. SO F up. SO angry.. Turned to do DRV, better. at least i can solve probability qns easily.. Im thinking perhaps im not the cut for engineer, where mechanics comes in, maybe i shld do something tht involves stats.. Hai.

Till today, i still dunno what i wanna do in future. Which area i shld pursue after A level. SMU, NTU or NUS. Im gong, sha, stupid. Studying for the sake of just studying. studying Blindly. No Specific Aims. SIlly.

2006-01-29T21:03:00.000-08:00

You scored as Engineering. You should be an Engineering major!

Engineering

75%

Psychology

67%

Sociology

67%

Philosophy

58%

Chemistry

58%

Mathematics

58%

Anthropology

58%

Dance

42%

Biology

42%

English

33%

Journalism

33%

Theater

33%

Linguistics

25%

Art

17%

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Happy New Year!

2006-01-27T20:10:00.000-08:00

Yo. Sleeping is good. Dreaming is even better. =)

Another Year have passed. Time to collect ang baos, meet relatives that we seldom contact with thru'out the whole yr.. Giving each other blessings with what they are planning to do in the yr ahead. Updating each other with stuff. Haha. This is basically what we do during CNY.. Right?

Haha. The CNY performance CO put up yest shld be quite good i think. The audience sounds positive.. dunno is clap n cheer for the sake of making noise or are they really praising us. *shrugs*.. Whatever it is.. IT's over, whether is backstage arrangement or frontstage.. Both are well done.. Thanks to all SLs n comm pp that aid me in maintaining order.. Thanks alot.. last but not the least, The house comm ppl. Thanks for logistic. n oso =)

ok. Thats all.. u guys have a nice weekend ba. hAppy new yEAR!!!!!

Morning surprise

2006-01-25T04:18:00.000-08:00

i boarded Bus 93 very early. 645am. Once again, i looked pass the next bus stop like i always do last yr. No one boarded at that stop..Very fast. it's macritchie liao.. Today is SA XC. i alight at the stop. Decide to use the Overhead bridge instead of the Traffic light. Dunno why i took that route too.. normally i will take the pedestrain instead.

Slowly, i walked up and down the bridge. This is the moment of the morning that surprises me. =) HAHA.

Btw, New year is 4 days away.. hehe..

Im feeling tired.

2006-01-20T04:24:00.000-08:00

No matter how much i slp for the past weeks, im still very tired in school.. dunno why.. everyday at least sleep 3 hours after i reach home.. hai. but still.. tired. maybe after a few more weeks, my body may be inured to the tireness and may be not so tired liao bah...

Next week is the CNY week. CO will have a performance.. hope it will turn out fine.. Wednesday rehearsal is very bad. Nvr imagine that that could happen lo. We played very badly. hai. so disgraceful.

Anyway. im very happy this week. That i got a new junoir..finally after sompong left, i can teach someone le.. can pass on my suona skill le.. will have pp to pass on liao.. i really thought tt i will bring my skills away from SACO, and forever have no one to teach. hehe.. This is the first time im teaching a girl to learn suona.. Was rather impress that the girl is even willing to try out suona. She manage to blow a note out the first time she tried, which is quite good alr..Today is the first practice i have with her. She is afraid of using full strength to blow cuz she is afraid that the noise produced will irritate others. HAHA. i told her not to be afraid and just pia it out next time. hehe.

So far right, i observe her. She definitely got the potential to learn it well. Very hardworking, determine to get the note right n stuff.. If only my those junoirs in MSHS are like her, den surely they will be able to play like me le. haha.

Now i pray pray pray that she dun leave SA after 2nd intake, den i can continue to teach her. Den also hope that she wun feel sian in CO and dun quit or whatsoever. Hope she can make it for Concert in april.. As for all other CO members, i oso hope they will stay in CO after 1st 3 mth..
sawuoncnyrehearsal.hai.

exposed.

2006-01-17T02:51:00.000-08:00

what more can i say? Just take one step at a time. I dun mean much. ya, if somehow we get to know each other, den good. if not, 4get it. I got more impt things to look after. My Phy and Maths S-paper, my upcoming Block test 1. My CO. CO have concert in april. CNy in a week more or so. So stressed abt it.

I got a feeling a wun do well this yr, n for the BT1. so b4 that happen, i think i must try to concentrate n not to be distracted. Set aside time to do tut n revise daily. and more time to study when exam approaches.

Ya.

2006-01-09T21:34:00.000-08:00

"The more you're looking for something, the more you won't find it. Just kill all of your false hopes, and soon one day, you will find it." This is what andre told me. Quite true.

When you are poor, in need of money. U try ur luck to gamble to strike rich, but to no avail.
However, on one particular day, when u are walking down a street, u suddenly saw a note of $50 bill on the floor. At that moment, u knew that u've found the thing u need.

Haha. Thats just an example only, not so heng to get $50, but $10 is possible la. haha.

2006-01-09T08:56:00.000-08:00

Are things on the opposite side really as good as many others thinks so???

While we are living in a HDB flat. We often hope to have a nice and luxurious condominium to live in. Hoping to enjoy all the facilities, privacy, stuff like tt. We will b envious of ppl living under such "wonderful" condition. On the other hand,some ppl who have lived in such condominium for long do not think that they really had a "wonderful" time ere. However, they missed the days and life living in HDB flat as there might be more interaction btwn neighbours, where the entire estate is more lively and stuff.

So, it's only after one been thru something, that he/she used to think that it will be great and nice, then the person wil realise that perharps, not going thru it or not accepting it will be a better choice. simplicity is better. something like this...

WHY?? do u guys oso feel the same way. Many of us at this age will not have much chance of experiencing such things. So, i pressume that most of us still hope to b on ther other side of the wall, to experience things.

WHYWHYWHY. After TNTL incident, y m i like tt. so pessismistic. Without courage, perserverence is redundant. so, just walk on like this? Im losing confidence. Im tactless.

rain rain go away, come again another day.

2006-01-07T22:31:00.000-08:00

Stupid, irritating rain. pls stop. i wanna do my running, i wanna take a stroll ard my estates, i want to have some peace. Too noisy, wet. This rain have been raining since friday Night.

Stuck at home sux. Boring, lonely and cold.. very qi can like tt.

Here i just pray the rain can go off soon.

-= =-

2006-01-07T00:50:00.000-08:00

Twice. i saw u twice in e cafe. I was sitting 6 rows of table away from u. Thru the many heads of others, somehow, i saw u among them not once, but twice. Strange ehs? haha. I was sitting at the same place for 2 days, looking towards the same direction and saw u. I wasnt intentional to look for u, It's coincidence that cause me to see you, somemore it's at random breaks during the day. Im thinking. Perharps being able to look at ur cheerful and cute facial expression everyday, i shld be contented alr. Till now, we r still strangers. I know ur existence, but u dun.

As for now, i need to lose weight, train up for X-country, NapFa and also study hard. S14 is getting more n more intensive. PPle tt used to play and joke ard in class are slowly picking up in ere work, doing tutorials on time and attending lectures. Jeremy mustnt slack at this moment. Thou this is First week of JAn, still abit in hol mood, but, one week is enough for me to relax. Next week onward must do tutorial on time n attend lectures liao.. no more skipping of lectures.

Glad that the whole class is now working together, thou competition is more tight, but without such challenges, i will not b able to push myself hard enough n b consistent in work.

Not only consistent in work, having a balance is important too. I must also learn and plan to set aside time for physical trainings. Like this i ll den b able to have a fresher mind to study too.

two words.

2005-12-31T08:27:00.000-08:00

i wanna scream out now.. **!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

&$^*&#@^%&#_$(*&!#^$(*#@^$#@$

HAHA. I still. i still. CAnt believe it.. CMI. mb, what liang mong said is true.. da man. da man. hai....

2005-12-28T04:38:00.000-08:00

im trying to practice my vocal. My singing is not as good as the past liao. im sad abt it. In the past, im able to reach higher notes but now, due to lack of practice, laziness, i could hardly reach high notes alr.. AFter 2 days of practice, now i lost my voice =( . Plus i have cough and flu now, very pek chek sia.. hai.

Sch reopening.. not much play time left. shld get myself ready for sch... alot things coming in J2..

2005-12-21T04:31:00.000-08:00

yest i composed my first song. It was rather draggy, very hard to fit in lyrics.. haiz.. but im still very happy that i tried to make my first song. haha... Ever since monday's movig, tuesday n wednesday was rather bad. Muscle ache n sleepy in the day, but was rather active in the night, causing me to slp very late these two days.

It have been sometime since i last dream of things. Suddenly i rmb sometime in july, i dream of a person continuously for 6 or 7 days like tt. Thinking abt it now, i just cant believe how can i dream of someone everyday for almost one wk like tt.. haha

TMl i ll b going back to pack CO room again.. hope everything will be fine tml. =)

Reflections

2005-12-15T04:03:00.000-08:00

These days, i've been listening to the Radio rather often, and one of the DJ says that she will always summarise her archievements for the year. She says that it is a good way to keep track of what u've done or archieved so far in ur live. haha.. sounds interesting rit?? Mb like when u reach 40, den u look into the book which u keep records, and read on past achievements. haha.

So, i've read abit of what i've blog so far this yr, thou i dun blog abt my achievements in my life, but they contain the feelings i've been thru this whole yr. Every month, the type of entries i blogged are different.When i read em, i can reminisce those thing i've been thru. I've realised how i have been thru this whole yr.. haha.. Starting from getting started in SAJC, then Abt my CCAs, camps and fun, outings and my few attempts into a relationship and some other stuff.

I've realised that i've learn how all these. Those feelings that i've in the past are very different from now too. My thoughts, my maturity, actions that i've took, as well as all the fun i've experienced. Some are gone for good, some are for the better. Things tt ive blogged these months are very different from the past. Perharps promos are over, and it is holiday now. I may be free of troubles and i have less burdens. haha.. but one thing i know for sure is that ive learn something, learn from my mistakes.

The only thing ive not learn, is to "Let Go". Things like FM. im still wondering if i shld really take it or let it go. The S-papers oso. Mb i shld wait till BT1 is over then i reconsider, it may be too early to think. yep. Just like what "U" have comment abt me during september period, that im too stubborn and wun know when to let go things. I do hope i will be enlighten soon and be more decisive. =) Thats all. and and, Andre is coming back tml or the following day, not sure. But, sure it will be good to have him back. haha

study

2005-12-14T09:29:00.000-08:00

mok shld mug. mok is mugging. mok is going to revise the stupid FM.. i just dun believe im unable to understand the stupid polar coordinates and vectors, complex, reduction formula.. all these irritating FM topic!!!!!

Sometimes im asking myself why do i need to be so hardworking to take 4 sub and work for that scholorship, it will be so much easier if i drop FM and just take Physic, chemistry and Maths-C. Right??? But, im not that kind of guy that will give up so easily. Im a person who believe that hardwork will be able to produce result, that if i study hard, i will be able to master these FM topic. Perharps i shld take a step at a time, slowly try to digest these topics which i havent been touching since september, all theses that im so bloody weak at.

So, once again, i will try to understand em. If im still unable to master these topics, i will really be lost. Cause next yr, everything will move to mechanics and statistic. Tutor will hardly touch on ese J1 topics till prelims i think.. Argh.. 18 days more to get them right, or else i can really cancel my 2 S-paper and drop FM le.

What can i do??

2005-12-13T07:07:00.000-08:00

YES. The question im asking is wad can i do?!? What shld i do?!? The problem now is not about the permission to stayover is denied by the school, or that mdm hue is very unwilling to help us. But, ironically, the problems lies with us. Most ppl did not replied to this stayover that i've organised, plus a few of them back out the last min. Sad right? Now, i dont even need to discuss with the rest whether to bother mdm hue and carry on the stayover already.

I'm rather sad abt the responses.. Firstly, shall say back about the camp that ODAC organised for us. The attendance is very bad. Many members choose not to attend it, take for eg the erhu section, because abt half of them cant make it for the camp for valid reasons, the other half also choose to avoid the camp without giving me good reasons. The rest of the CO also like that, most ppl have part-time job, and all choose not to go. Very eager of everyone to earn money.

Who can i blame on? I wld say myself. yes. the most regretful thing ive done ever since i become part of the ex-comm is to be lenient on the members.. TOO TOO lenient.. the fucking problem with me is unable to be strict and serious to others.. i maybe strict to myself abt things in life, but im unable to do the same to others..... All blames on me..

I shld have just tell them b4 the holidays that they shld come for all practices and that very valid reason for being absent for practices is needed. i Shld i have made the announcement b4 hand, and tell everyone the importance of the long practice hours during the holidays.. What we've planned is to let everyone practice hard during the holidays, so that the weaker on can catch up, and everyone can be more familiar with the songs. The songs that we are going to perform in april is not very easy, thou for experience players, it can be tackled, but not to forget that quite a few is inexperience. Moreever, a few of the comm member, as well as those experienced players have also went for work shadowing and research programs. Plus 3 members who are quitting CO, i can say that the current situation of CO is in chaos... Im very worried abt it. Either we carry on this CO well and organised, with every member enthu n looking forward to each practice, giving me good atttendance or good attitude, or we shall just disband. Im serious.

It's so difficult to have a meeting with my comm people. I dont know what to say. disappointing. 13 ppl in the comm, 2 quiting.. 1 more leaving next yr.... now left with 11ppl, out of this 11, yen nee, emily have research program, unable to make it for all the practice. So, left with 9 ppl. Sad to say, due to my incompetency, alicia and lucinda also didnt come for most practice cause they are working.. thou alicia came a few times , n lucinda who only came once. Otherwise, i hardly see them.. So now left with 7ppl. Bernice, natalie, chengzhi, sinyi, sinyee,cheryl and me. Im very dishearten by the poor attendance of the comm, i wun even think of having a meeting alr. So, the whole holidays, i didnt got the chance to talk to em. But, but, i've talk with bernice and sinyee abt such things. It's so pointless to have a meeting with so many ppl not present. So, most things i will only tell them next year when everyone have finish whatever they are busy with.

So, now that only 7/13 of the comm is present for practice, can u all think what abt the members?? 50% of the comm is present, somehow this will reflect members attendance too, 10 of the remaining members, only half of em are present these practices. pple like kuan yee, grace, kangting, shiyan are like some of the more active members le.. others like janice, hongying, still ok... but the rest, i do not want to say le. So attendance recently are like more than ard 8 to 13. I'd be very happy if im able to see more than 10ppl alr. Very disappointing.

In conclusion, why will all these happen??? Is it because it is holiday??? ppl Like to slack, go for holiday? Or take the opportunity to work and forget abt their responsibilities in their CCA. Even thou they want to work, why cant they find jobs that allow them to take offs on wed and thus for CO??? These are ppl that totally didnt have passion in CO, or that they have " forgotten". Still got a few, who daringly quitted cuz they really have no more passion in CO. Which doesnt mean that it's a bad thing. So, does this means that the others who purposely ponten CO practice for other leisure of theirs, or for work, have the intention of quitting??? sighs.

All i can say now is that i did not prepare myself for whatever have happened so far.. my lack of experience to foresee such circumstances.. I shld have say n make my stand ealier on that i do not condone such behaviour. mb, these will not have happen than..

SO MUCH i have say abt the odac camp and attendance for the holiday practice, i shall now say abt the stayover thing that ive planned on 18th. My evaluation for this failure. Yes, this stayover have been cancelled for those that reading this. Response to this stayover is not good.. only fairly ok.... Possible reasons for poor response, 1) ppl alr have planned their activities for the hols...2) ppl are not interest at all..... 3) I didnt make a proper annoucement for this stayover, and im unable to do so, due to poor attendance during the last practice. 4) This plan is too abrupt....

The stayover is cancelled not because mdm hue is not willingly to help, but due to too little ppl to stayover.. And it will not nice to bother mdm hue just for the few of us.. yep...

Im sad, disappointed abt everything so far. But, i will try to improve everything. Next year will be a better year i hope. Long entry is this.. tired am i.. sian, sad am i. =(

yea

2005-12-11T07:03:00.000-08:00

haha.. today went for a mahjong session. choing for 3 rounds man. haha...First time won that much.. the First round i win $7, den by 2nd round $16, but 3rd round become i lose $5 le...den approaching the ending, the xi n bei feng, i fought back, and back $47... haha.. den in the end won $42.. sibei shoick.... if everyday can earn like tt, den im really a happy man.. haha.. $1260 a month, not bad sia..

Me and hoe seng, my sec sch fren, went to sam house to play with his fren.. good is good.. hai, play time almost over le i think.. time to stop liao.. so many homework piling up, about time to start to do em le... plus my FM. sighs.... i have not study FM since August, alot to catch up... and physic and chemistry and maths.. alot things all forget le. i will need to start revising soon... perharps one more mahjong session this week and this shall stop. haha.. yep..

lastly.. my sleepin problem, not much improvement... recently i slpt earliest at 1plus... still cant slp early.. plus when i get ready my bed at 1plus, i will always slp only after 3am.. very sickening. hope this can get better real soon.... and, hai.. andre... u went thailand le.. kinda miss u... miss the night we drink and eat together. haha.. but, nvm.. can eat lesser these days while u are away... now i shall still try to jian fei... but, really, this plan of mine is not working.. been eatint choco and junk food quite often.. thou my lunch and dinner didnt eat much, but those chocos really will cause me to become fatter....

sighs... hope it is still ok.. hope im maintaining my weight...

HAHA

2005-12-03T07:27:00.000-08:00

yest went for ODAC camp. It was a teambuilding and confidence course thingy.. hmm, was rather bad, cuz only 6 ppl from CO turn up, instead of 15 which suppose to go. Disappointing. The camp was not really fun, but was still ok. Teambuilding games hardly involve everybody in the group, perharps some ppl are lazy to contribute, some thinks that their idea are unworkable, some ppl who have the idea, but are shy and too soft to get it across to the team.. so, these are things that members in the team must change, they must learn that each and everyone has the right and role to play in the team, each of them can contribute significantly. This can then enable the task to be completed faster and bla bla bla.. still got alot more la.. shall not elaborate +)

Then the Confidence course is mainly the high elements. I think this way of building confidence in oneself is very useful. People that are afraid of doing things in life, or have low confidence, once they have go through such hard and scary courses, they will then know that whatever they have to face or are to face are actually not as hard anymore. The most important is to build up faith in urself as well as having the confidence to take a step and move forward in the air.. aaha.. something like tt la... failed for the first time, den stand up and try again, keep trying till u succeed and u'll be able to be confident of urself le...

So much abt what ive learn and things.. hmm.. most of us got slight sun burn as we are out there for like 2-3 hours, yesterday was really hot and sunny man.. cmi cmi.. haha..ok la. abt all, shld add on abt today's outing with CO senoirs tml or wad.. very tired le..

2005-11-24T01:53:00.000-08:00

my mum went malaysia with my younger sis, argh... no more dinner by my mum.. soo sian.. food taste so bland.. must cook myself... everything sian...b t w... picking up again on running... hope to run 30mins everyday.. did ran for past two days le.. must jia you.... but, still eating my butter kaya bread.. too delicious to stop eating tt le. haha.. but, must stop must stop.. butter rather fattening.. haha.. i shld stop eating supper!!!!

kylie kwok

2005-11-21T10:42:00.000-08:00

she is cute!! :D:D:D:D:D:DD:D:D:DD:D:D:DDD GO see her link!

2005-11-20T17:21:00.000-08:00

after 3 mths, finally went kboxing again. =) again with vera n andre, using our JAV kbox card. haha..... i abit crazy yest.. sorry for misbehaving and making stupid noise and screams.. haha. like usual, tends to go abit high went singing.. =)

day 3 of my diet plan is mad, ate too much nuts last nite and drank 2 glass of coke.. but that is my dinner leh, dunno got or not.. but.. nvm nvm..... day4 was okok... ate a mars bar after cycling in the noon. and my lunch was just simple cai fan.... hmm still ok... btw, was cycling past orchard and saw khai ming.. dunno why i keep seeing him ese days.. going out with frens or back to sch oso will see him one.... freaky sia... :X

lifes getting more and more sian in the hols.. playing maple and heroes4 cant keep me up the whole day... exercise the most only 2 3 hours... hai.. need to start some planning to revise for hw le..

2005-11-18T18:45:00.000-08:00

"weak desire brings weak result"... This is very true.. Im super bored in this holiday... only thing i do is eat slp play... but now.. i must eat less. this is the best time to slim down... exercise more and eat less, den shld be able le..... today is the second day of my diet plan.. hmm.. so far still ok, didnt eat alot, got ran n swim for both days. if this continues, i think i will be able to lose at least 2kg by this month end.

Apart from slimming.. This holiday is best for me to avoid ppl who i dun wish to see, and the best time to study and do reflections...... My hols is so bored and i think i shld start doing HOliday tutorial and revise for all topic this yr le... i must admit i have my life is very dry and boring, not enough friends to hang out with and stuff.. but, perharps this is my lifestyle i think.. Just to study 24/7, slp and eat.... and play only when i have the time.. This yr i ve not been watching TV untill after promos.. cant even find e time.. den, didnt even play any games till after promos oso.. and now, after 1mth, im sick of playing alr.. i think i shld go back to studying mood.. i need to adjust.. i dun give a damn.. just going to work hard for wad i think it's worth it...

yes.. im super sian.. im not the type who can play and enjoy, i dun even know how to enjoy life, tt pathetic.. perharps im suitable to be mugger, to mug all day rd.. mb that will be good for me to forget and not to care abt something which is so sian.... arGH. 4As, 2 S-paper dist. i will work hard for tt..

=.=

2005-11-15T23:12:00.000-08:00

sian

wait till op is over

2005-11-11T08:39:00.000-08:00

den i will be free le. =) really "free" le.

happyboy

2005-11-08T20:40:00.000-08:00

YAY. today was a rather good day... finally finish the video, :D.. showed to shane and raymond, but they have no reaction.. haha.. but andre got some reaction.. not bad not bad.. seems that only closer friends can understand me better and be able think the way as i think.. =)....It is a nice video, ahaha mark the end of something which have been bothering me for the past few months.. good is good.... now that things were fine le. I should leave it the way and see that things will go on. =)=)=)=)=)

next thing is today OP presentation was rather good.. quite fluent and clear in my speech .. x) however, can still improve... practice really helps alot... i've practice on my own for at least 4 times and im unable to do it quite ok today... hai. giving a speech has always been my weakness.... i always screw up such things.. i think i know le, must practice, have confidence in urself, use body gesture to emphaise on things... yep. something like tt... i need to practice more to prepare for more of such things ahead.. i need.. even in future i will oso need to give speechs. ;)

and third thing.. haha. TNTL no more.. =)... just learn of something.. good is good.. hmmm.. hahaahha. btw, nothing much.. im looking forward to SAV. SAV is near my place good.. very fast. 10min can reach le. either by bus or by cycling.. both e same.. =).. hehe. can start planning how to go sch nxt yr le.. .. thats all x)

2005-11-03T01:23:00.000-08:00

why things become like tt.. i cant avoid it anymore. im 17. i've to face it sooner or later.. i need to practice this shit.. this fucking shit. For the past 6 yrs, after i know what i become. I tried to avoid it as much as i can. Untill now, i realised how cruel the world is, that i have to face this ALONE. The survival skills, i wld need tt.... i have 7weeks to prepare. time is running out... PP are RUNNING AWAY.

EVERYONE's doing eir own stuff.. nvm.... i reall give up le.. this one and that one..... One day, one day i willl just flare up and scream and all of you.. i hope i can stilll surpress this devil in me.... if not.. i dunno what will happen ...

face it mok.

hols begins...

2005-10-28T19:33:00.000-07:00

last night.. scary.. thunders.. lightning..almost spolit my night. SLp with the light open sia... cuz the flashes disrupted my rest.. so sian.. but i manage to slp with the lights on till the morning.... woke up at 9am and fall asleep again at 11 and slp till 1.30..

went to swim with dre at 4. till 5 plus.... didnt swim more then 50m. merely soaking my body in the water with chlorine sia..

hols will be sian i can tell.. really.. need to get myself involve in something man.. if not really will bored to death.

the troubled me.

2005-10-26T01:03:00.000-07:00

Things troubling me currently...... argh.

1) Whether to drop FM or not
2) number of S-paper to take... 1 or 2.. Maths phy or maths chem
3) take 3As,1S or 4As,2s
4)Commitment in CO
5)SPeakinG properly. voicing out.
6)tntl relationship.. are we still as close?? we quarrelled too much. hope we'll get better over the hols.. thanks for the help tonight for my OP. u saved my life once again. tq.
7)Kn, sy and chee wee.. thanks for everything.. making my year 1 a nicer year. all the best.
8)The person i respect most is up to something, better not make me lose the respect, better not.....
9) learn to control my emotions. learn to tolerate more, be understanding and reasonable. Quarrel less, LIsten to others more.
10)PW OP.
11)Im slightly autistic. i like to stay in my comfort zone.
12)Im getting fatter. putting on weight. unfit.
13)i need to learn to swim in the hols. IMPT!!!!! NS coming.. kan sian.
14)$$$$ not enough. so many bills to pay.
15) Cycling. still not pressing on pedals, need to get it started.
16)Sleeping early. not at 2am. must sleep at 12am. if not i'll be slping in sch again.. serious prob..
17) eating iced stuff are good.. =P

abt all..

2005-10-24T09:06:00.000-07:00

confused.

2005-10-22T23:32:00.000-07:00

i shld have ignore u all along. so that we wun quarrel. so hard to talk to u. mb im agitiated, so i somehow dun seems to be talking nice enough to u. BUt, things tt u say also very not nice to listen. dun say wad " not nice den dun tok to me la".. this kind of phrase i heard it alot times le.. the more u say this, e more angry the other party will get la.

2005-10-21T14:02:00.000-07:00

We r late for CIP yest. took the right bus in the wrong direction which makes a loop ard queenstown. we wasted 40mins and reach SPD like 1 hr later...The person ere ask us to do admin work and we are suppose to put letters into envelopes so that they can sent e letters out to various companies that have affiliation with em, and inform em abt the flag day fund raising thing... we tried our best to make up by doing our work faster, n we managed to complete the work by 6pm. Bernice, shiyan, khainam and i were competing with cheryl, lucinda, sinyee, emily and alicia to see who finish the most envelopes by e end of the day.it's like 4 on 5. haha.. we do very fast. hands are super numb and shoulder muscles are very pain.. hai..

AFter tt, went to ljs for dinner... again we played the no. game, and this time i lost quite a few rds, get to drink those disgusting mixture of cherry, corn, chilli an ice lemon tea.. hahaa...
went home and slp after tt.. woke up and went cycling with frens till daybreak.... den got rain abt 3am.. stop over at petrol ksiok... hestitated whether to take a cab back.... den we moved on after rain stop..... in the end we still took a cab back la.. cuz the floor is wet, if we going to cycle fast back, the rain water will spill all over on us.. very sian la, so haha.. cab...

result

2005-10-17T22:29:00.000-07:00

promo result
maths--90.5------A
f.maths--43------O
physics--73.7-----B
chemistry-76.3---A
GP--------48----C6
Chinese----61---b4

overall result (finalised)
maths--82------A
f.maths--54-----D
physics--77-----A
chemistry-73---B
GP--------52----
Chinese----57 --
RP---------62
MSG--------2.00

how m i suppose to go thru this.

2005-10-15T00:49:00.000-07:00

so sry sinyee for spoiling ur sat nite. sry for saying stupid things, ASSUming things agn....know i have to face it.. but im too sad to do so.. spoilt ur night.. lucinda. thanks for listening to me.. n encouragement

I need to face this.. i need to be strong.decisive.firm.open....... BUT, can someone show me the way.. .....................

open house prep.

2005-10-13T18:45:00.000-07:00

i woke up today finding myself rushing to school again... i was surprisingly awake by janice msg. lol. she asked me abt whether Co got perform on sat.. I den saw the clock, it was 626am den.. im late.. but i still lie on the bus, wondering shld i go to sch or shld i not. shld i go ard 12 plus just to open CO room for em, or just pon the whole day.. end up i think think think.. i decide to go sch instead.. im afraid kn wun be able to make it cuz he had to go for his medical checkup ard two.
SO i rush to bath, iron clothes and den i leave my house and reached the bustop abt 6.53.. took the bus to sch and reached abt 730.. no sch bell today, no assembly.. . we have to go for movie screening from 8am too 10am.. sian lo..

So me, shane, liangmong, huric, ray n wp, yaoyong, chenyang, went to CO room to slack instead.. den as usual, we played cards , listened to the radio... haiz. CO room aircon spoilt, very stuffy.. no choice lo.. use fan... abt 915, den we go gallery ere slack.. some went to play BB, while we cont playing bridge..very long never played bridge le.. i rmbed those days in 1st 3 mths, where my clique always played bridge together... althou some of the class pp are annoyed and sian tt we keep playing bridge, but it was fun!!! haha. who cares em as long as we have fun. haha..

den, after tt abt 1030. i went back to CO room to start prep for open house le.. we cut n cut n cut those papers and stick and stick.. tired man.. we at first did 100 of the brochures and bookmark each. Den khainam say we shld print more.. so we printed 200 more of each. end up we have 600 brochures to give out, 300 bookmarks as souvenir to give.. KAoz.. alot la!!!. i suggest to him, we can send some pp to go pick up those that pp throw on the floor one, dun waste. ahha.. but den.. nvm, can stick those on the walls of the toilet cubicles ere. and in the cafe oso.. we got ALOT to spare man.... we also painted the banner... it was beautifully done la!!. gotta praise Sinyee for mixing out the perfect purple color. khainam,sinyi, lucinda, chengzi, natalie bernice and mr ahem for painting..... thanks for the help.. haha..i hope that our banner will be one of those nicer one..=) The co room has a pungent smell now.. sian.. hope by sat the smell will go away.. if not it wun be nice to let those pp smell the paint smell.. Now, everything is almost done.. tml we'll have to put up those banners and posters in sch, decorate the booth. we'll only start to do it after 330 till 7pm.. after tt the hall will be lock.. we might be putting the instrument ere overnight. yea.

today i just spent almost the whole day in CO room. from 10 till 5.. almost died in the stuffy room. yest also stayed inside. haha..and ya.j2 have graduated..good luck for their's A's bah. hope u guys can score AAAAAAAAA... haha...

love

2005-10-10T23:25:00.000-07:00

i cant even maintain frenship. love? forget it. relationship between guys can be so confusing.. can someone pls tell me how much more complicated can BGR go to...

friendship

2005-10-10T23:23:00.000-07:00

Just what have gone wrong in our friendship mrTNTL. Is it because these 2 yrs too smooth sailing?? I dunno. First, i will confess about my weakness as a friend to you, and how bad i treat you. After 4Yrs, im still unable to tell when u r happy and when u r not. Sometimes i misjudge the situation and end up screwing up ur day. Second, i may be pestering like asking your whereabout, but i just wanna know if u are free and that's all. Yet u find me a irritant. Just because u've got new friends, friends that are more outgoing and nicer to clique with, u abandon me. U treat my calls as meaningless calls. haven even let me complete my sentence and u just hang up e call in less den 4 sec by saying " eh, i not free, later call u". chances are 90% that u wun call me. FOr this half of e yr, im tolerating it. but, now, u are taking me granted. SAying tt my calls are meaningless....... wat if.. wat if one day it is so emergency that i need ur help so immediately and u jus hang up by saying " not free call back later"//

I dunno why is this happenning. i can . i can keep these all in my heart. but, it wun be good. the more i keep, the more anger it accumulate in me. thought tt if i express out to u, u wld REALISe it and say sry for being insensitive abt it and say something good. but yet u say " friends dun bug each other all the time, do me a favour, get a life, Bye irritant"... such a reply is not BEST FRENS replies okays.... iF this is how u treat others. good luck pal. i dun think ur frens will feel good to tolerate this.

MAybe it is because of 4 yrs of frenship. u expect me to UNDERSTAND. to be able to tolerate such things. u may be angry and disappointed tt im so lousy and intolerant. but have u ever put urself into my shoe, and think if ur bestie is to treat u like tt, will u feel sad???

It is not the 1st, 2nd or 3rd time i endure these things. alot i can say. not tt i complain and praise myself to be able to tolerate this NORMAL stuffs that u assume( i dunno) for these yrs. but im unable to keep it inside anymore.. i want to understand tt wad u r doing these days are abit overboard..

Whenever u need me, u will call me up and give me that serious tone and ask me out... HArdly i will turn u down. i'll always try my best to go with u. Yet, u seldom consider my ideads and thoughts... N one more.. u're always late. i've told u many times abt it, yet u r unwillingly to change( this is wad i assume cuz u r only on time 1/20). U may say again, WHo am i to control ur life. im not ur dad, ur mom, or kins. u will say F- off. i know. i know. thats too u. u dun like control. if not u also wun quarrel with ur siblings and parents everyday......

Not tt i wanna cham ur family matters, but i jus dun think it is right for u to treat ur parents that way u've been doin. they maybe very nagging, irritaing and noisy in ur view. interupting ur peace and home n stuff. i always ask u to relax, yet u will say " ive endured for 17 yrs of crap".... but, fren, think back. dun they endure ur attitude, rudeness and absurd behaviour for the past 17 yrs too...... i know im not a good child to comment abt u. Im also rebellious type. but, try, try to treat em better.. u'll nvr know when dey will leave the world. by then, if really u prefer that, no want will pester n irritates and nag u..... one day we'll be parents too... rmb this " if u dislike others to treat u the way u treat em, dun treat em the way u treat em" as simple as that........IT is impossible for everyone to attain that level. but we can work towards tt.. these are all things in life we shld learn.. perfect is impossible, but things near perfection are achievable..

There are more more more bad things abt u to say.. but i shall not carry on. i myself have many bad things too......... since i've listed so much of others bad things.. i shall say some of mine too..
Im lazy, say things but never carry it out.....Always try to postpone things and get things done later... Im a loner. i'd say. but, somehow im ok with it. jus tt i hope that i'll be able to be out with u to do things we used to do.. I can stand loneliness.... i can..doing things i find happy and meaningful to do...Third, im coward.... Im afraid of doing alot things in life.. always retreat when faced difficulties.. things im afraid to do, i'll not try. this is bad. im want to overcome this, but, it is hard..

i think i say too much today. Hope u wld pop by to see this entry.. i dun wish to MSG u anymore after just now quarrel. After 2 days or so, i think things will cool down n u will understand le.
One last thing.

Promos.

2005-10-06T14:12:00.000-07:00

OVer. yay!!.. time to relax for a while, b4 start for PW n CLAO.. sian lo. CLAO... argh... envy some pp lo, dun need to take CLAO. i regret so much not to pester my sec school to let me take HCl. if i know i can escape CLAO, i will take HCL le lo!!! i oso dunno wad to say now...... some of my frens, they depend alot on this promo result to promote.. i seriously hope they can meet the criteria and promote.. if not, it will be sad if they are forced to leave sa.. ok la.. promos over le, so i dun think i shld say abt these le..

haha..one bad bad bad bad bad bad bad news... im gain weight!!!!!!! and!!!!! im fatter now!!!!!!!!! this is very bad.. im starting my runs from TODAY onwards. I'll run at least 4km everyday. in sch, i will oso go for the morning run and not ponten it le.... feel so sad la.. after resting for 2 mths, my weight jus bounce back. plus the stress from promos, i've been eatin all kind of snacks, and i like just cant stop biting and chewing food in my mouth when studying.. esp sweets, one after one, i keep eat eat eat.. one whole pack of sweet, 40 like tt i can finish in 3 4 hours.. mad sia...... i must LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh........................................

exam start liao.

2005-09-27T22:47:00.000-07:00

YAy! GP is over. haha. i dont know why, since sec sch, i alway hope english exams to be over as soon as possible.. i just hate hate hate to write essays and do compres.. sian!!!!... The GP paper today was not so difficult, i think most pp will think so, but not mE!! I dun have the time to complete my AQ in compre.. sux man, my time management sux!!! left like 10 mins to do AQ... i dun even got the time to think which author i want to agree, i jus anyhow zham.. make a stand, elaborate the authors agrument, saying why i agree to it and faster bring in another Counter- agrument from the 2nd author and then refute it, den end. jus nice 10 min man.. i dun see a point to think so much and write it out nicely, cuz my assignment for AQ i've been scoring like 1 and 2 marks for it.. sian la. anyhow write i think also 1 or 2. haha.

As for the essay, i think this is the first time i wrote so much. i used almost 4 page to write it, im like pinning my hopes on essay le, if essay cant even pass, den i think the compre will definitely pull down my marks ALOT, and sure fail.. haiz... today was seriously one of the worst day in the month.. im having a bad running nose man....... i used 3 packets of tissue during the whole examinations and another 7 packets after school when studying in bcc. sian la.. my nose almost drop off, so pain!!! i tried n endure tt irritating shit... i got to keep stuffing tissues in my nose to stop it from flowing out, but i look like an idoit doing tt. No choice man.... but end up, i still cldnt take it, and went back home to rest.. i took some medicine for running nose and den study abit, den slp liao....... now that im awake, im feeling better, hope tml i will be fully recovered, so i can take my CL exam at ease.. OH NO!! haha say abt CL, i haven study.. haha.. i go study le. :P

2005-09-17T04:23:00.000-07:00

Co performance yesterday was still ok ok onli.. We played Cai yun very poorly. Quite alot of Mistakes here and ere and from our reaction, i think the audience will also know that someone have played wrong notes. Liwen was scolding us saying that we shldn't stop at the part we played wrongly and look guilty. something like tt, i didnt listen clearly. Hai.. But, luckily got Khainam's solo piece. haha. i Think he have niu zhuan the situation. "yue liang dai biao wo de xing " wor... haha.. zai song.. i think his whole mind is abt "ms tan" when he is playing the whole song.. :) Although at the beginning part of the song, his notes are abit unstable and can tell that he is very nervous, but after sometime it's ok le. I think it is becuz he too Expericence le lor. sUch solo piece is nothing to him de. haha

Im grateful to those that turn up for the performance yesterday.. haiz. promos is coming So soon le and yet we are invited to the performance.. what can i say??? Like wad kn say, it's good to help others when they are in need.. he say we shld help whenever we can. haha.. haiz.. as For some pp hor, like mr ho. haha. mr ho dunno go where n prepare what function for mrs ho, nvr come n perform with us. tsktsk.. JK la. That mr ho is beginning to pon pon pon liao.. argh..

These days everyone are preparing for Promos, and everyone look so tired and unhappy like tt.. i hope u guys cheer up kaes?? too long nvr update blog liao.. also dunno wad to say... sighs.. i go off le ba.. +)

tired.

2005-09-10T10:22:00.000-07:00

yest i went to sch at 8am in the morning to do my PW. im super lagged behind. i went ere onli to do my EOM and INR. cant believe it rit? i bet u guys already hand it in and are working on written report 2nd draft le. sighs. me used the lib com from 8am till 11plus, finally complete it and i hand it in to my ST.

Im already quite drained after doing pw for like 4 hours, but then still have to study..say abt study, me didnt touch much this hols. i now left with two days. n i think im going to use this two days to study le bah. cant play play liao..

2005-09-10T07:39:00.000-07:00

2005-09-02T08:23:00.000-07:00

i regretted. everything i've done. so sry to everyone. my attitude is bad. i'll be fine soon. As for **, im really very sian to *** it. Feel like running awaay from these, den find a small corner to do my mugging... seriously, im waiting to get out. n just be in some other place, where i dun have to take care of these things. seeing pp tt i've did wrong to. sighs.

these are e impossible. "y do we fall?? cuz we can pick ourselves up ", this is wad shiyan told me. hmm.. so wad if i picked myself up. Things ard us wun change. im e onli one tt change. will they change if dey see me change? dunno.

nvm. it's a dumb entry today... the feeling is no longer ere. i dun belong ere i feel. perharps, im onli being impulsive. mb i'll fine again soon.. hope so.

still abt u

2005-08-27T14:49:00.000-07:00

3 mths have passed. I've still not yet gotten over that thing. The feeling may have faded abit, but i've unable to forget u. Promos r drawing near n i hoped that i can settle down soon. all the best to J2's having their prelims next week.. u all gotta try your best and press on kz?

To pOng and clique: Thanks alot for all the fun. laughter and joy u guys have brought to CO during the past 8 months. Now tt it's prelim already. put in your best kz? After A's we shall have the chalet again.. see ya den. take care =)

muggermugmug

2005-08-22T09:52:00.000-07:00

perharps i shld set my blog as muggermugmug.. lolx.... Promo's approaching everyone is mugging like hell.. =) Me too shall take action and start mugging as efficient as possible.. im trying to slp early everynight, so that i'd be more attentive in tuts n lects... den i'll be less tired in the evening.. =) -

farewell

2005-08-07T22:05:00.000-07:00

yest's farewell was rather good =)... im happy that everything went well.. thanks guys for making it such a success.. thanks the rest of the J1 comm member.. with special thanks to sinyee n emily for planning it =).... den thanks all J2's tt attended it!! esp to sompong and clique!!!.. miss u guys alot alot.. i'll rmb to plan the yr end chalet de!!!!.. i'll try to make it as fun as possible kkZ???haha..yest was really sad towards the ending.. many pp said very sad things during the "tread ball game".... i tried to control myself so hard not to cry.. but in the end i still cried.... this type of thing too hard to control le. cuz too sad.. haha.. seeing my seniors leaving CO..those tt were very close to me de.. like sompong n clique, aaron, wee wee, pey ling n the rest of the J2 comm..... i just hope to have another yr with em.. although we r together like onli 6 mths.. i really enjoyed alot.. thank u so so much!!!

spare me

2005-08-05T00:01:00.000-07:00

im really in a state of nothing else but troubles. Troubles all comin to me this time.. so coincidental...f**k man... this is SO SO SO __

Firstly, Pw, my group just cant decide to use which GPP.. i've spend alot effort on creating another GPP, i thought they will accept and used the new one, but now they are thinking of using back the old one again .. so stupid... I've not yet done my INR also, den now EOM is coming again.. really dunn how... sian.. my ST also never hurry us to hand in, so we also dunno when to hand in and wad.. so lost.. i also dunno what to write for InR.. argH.

Secondly, Im too busy with alot alot things, dun really have the time to conc on 4 sub.. im troubled over whether really to drop FM.. seriously, mentally i've kinda give up on FM le. not intending to go FM elements tuts.... but, im very afraid i'll regret..nvm, this one can dun care, at the end of the day, the teachers wun force me to drop even i score badly for Fm in promos, cant be tt bad too..

Thirdly, im wondering wad is wrong with me recently, i've been sayin wrong things to almost everyone. It seems to me tt everything in someway is angry of me, like pp are cursing n saying bad things abt me.. i dunno... And recently, i've made andre angry, abt that latecoming thing.. really very sry dre... but, it's ok now le, but i still still for tt.. yup.. then sinyee.. also sorry for saying u abt the farewell thing... and the V***O thing... i dunno what's wrong with me tt day.. talked n commended too much.. HOpe hope hope tt u really really really dun me angry with me... and.. have trust in me ok??? the word tt struck me the most is when u said that " it ONLY reduces the trust i've in you"... im seriously very affected by it....
people ard me, they've also said tt i've changed.. i think ive oso changed.... im a bad person now... giving alot pp attitudes and stuff.. .. i cant control.. theses days im really very bad mood.. SO sRy to everyone.. i'll Try to change... ok???

Fourth, i really think tt im unfilial... i have not visit my grand father for a long time... finding excuses to study and go out with frens.. even ive free time i'll oso play the com and not choose to go up to my grandparents place to visit em.. now tt my grandpa is admitted to hospital, i really wanna slap myself and scold myself a thousand times.. that, why ive to wait till this stage den do something..... pp like nvr lost something, they wun regret n see the urge to do it...... i really v sorry for not visiting my grandpa... now tt im so busy, i cant visit him.. he is currently fine n i think i shall visit him as soon as he returns back home....

Lastly, it's abt U.... it's a M-I-R.. yet im so persistant.... i really like u alot..... now tt we r so awkward when taking... so so so... i may be talking perfectly to u on phone, sms-ng u, but, everything is so diff when we our eye meets.... again, u msg me and say tt you dun want to feel this awkwardness btween us anymore in future... indirectly, u r trying to tell me to forget u throughly..................it's like the 4th time u asked me abt it le....... i stilll cant give u e reply..... how u want a person who likes u to like not like u the next day???
i really dunno how to reply u..... is like asking me to forget all this???? impossible.. impossible....... but, u r rit, nothing will work out, im being stupid like this.. im onli hutring myself n ruining the frenship.....seriously, i dun wish to ruin our this sjfrenship too....it wun be good..... but, how m i suppose to get over these????
It's hard...it's hard.... I will try toget rid of this awkwardness between us....... asap....

FAREWELL

2005-08-04T09:08:00.000-07:00

farewell guys..be sure to cry tt day...this is so so sad..

ZHu really Zhu.

2005-07-31T21:47:00.000-07:00

yoz hoho.. woke up early in the morning n i cancelled my tuition with my cousin.. haha. i've decided to go and study with Wee wee and sinyee.. haha...if not after my tuition already ard 4.. den wun have mujch time with em.. see. i very good hor.. =)... At first it was very good. everyone studying...den. den.. dunno is my fault or wad.. i shld not have rush sy to eat.. after she eat rit, she keep tok tok tok tok.. . she say she no mood to study le... den, im affected.. Keep asking me to tok.. can even crap abt everyone's names in the Co.. from me, till almost everyone in Co... den she start to guess pp's bro n sis name.. haha..

she really bo liao.. i cant stand it.. i dun like to guess. i tried to guess her sister name, and i give up after a few tries, dunno how to perserve and guessed from A - Z.. haha..

ok la.. i've still not done my FM tut.. i gotta do it now.. if not i'll die.. bye!

2005-07-30T18:35:00.000-07:00

I'm trying once more.. once more to forget you... i failed once, but i must try again. I hope i'll be able to do it. Promos is coming, it's important. And as for the j2's, A's is also coming, so CO j2's, pls study hard!!! jia you.. i will also jia you to study le......

Den, last nite went out with kenneth, yu qing, hes n jan... i did not talked much. Jus followed em and have our dinner..... it was a long time since i dine at marche.. kinda miss those days working over ere... after tt, we went to cafe cartel. slack over ere from 9 till 11...

On the way back, n along the journey, kenneth have told me quite some things abt CO.. i hope i'll be able put those that i've listened to action.. and do my best as a VP.. sometimes i doubt myself to be able to do my job well.. but, thats the reason why i challenged myself to be Vp too.. so i must try. i still rmb what u've told me kenneth.... *smile*...

2005-07-28T07:22:00.000-07:00

five time..im still counting.

today in CO room.. we talked about alot things.. we are crapping!!!.. it's very long since we j2 and j1 come together to talk cok.. this time round the topic we touched one is................ haha.. a v sensitive topic.. haha.. talk alot lo!!!. that KN keep telling.. and that peyling keep asking... hai.. we talked very long..

den we went to eat pasta.. cont. our talk again. this is fun la. CO COCOCOCOCCO.. haha... den me sy n kn took bus home.. haha

dream.

2005-07-27T05:32:00.001-07:00

i dunno why, i cant explain it. this afternoon is the fourth time. i've cried in my dreams, i cant stand this anymore.

dream addiction

2005-07-26T20:41:00.000-07:00

Gosh. even when im sleeping in the sch lib today, i dreamt of u.. dunno whats happening.. out of 4 days, 3 days i dream of you.. this time round this dream is very meaningful... cause, i dream that u called me up, n then it call that wakes me up.. jus nice i woke up at 845, and im am to make it in time for a lect.. luckily, if not i will be super late for tt lect.... The lesser i think, the more i dream....tsk.. this is dunno good or bad....

after school today, i went to bishan Gym to do workout.. haha. believe it or not, this is the 2nd time i entered the gym, other den going to my secondary school gym, i nvr been to any outside gym before.. haha.. Doing workout at gym is very different from doing weights at home.. the gym equipment are much more efficient and also more tiring.. In less then 15 mins, im like dead already.. haiz..now i super tired.. dunno how m i going to stay awake to complete my Gp essay.. i shld hand it up on monday, n the teacher is scolding me le.. i need to hand it in tml, if not im dead... argh.. GP!!!!

dreaming of you

2005-07-24T12:59:00.000-07:00

heys! how are You..... while im studying in my corner.. suddenly u walked to my direction,u sit beside me asked me how m i..... A simple greeting like tt already makes me happy for the entire day n night...... those words u've said n the smile that u gave me i can still picture it.... it's so.. SWEET... ---it's onli a dream---

---back to the reality--

this wun happened nw... or in the near future.... but.... maybe in future when we met, u will...