YES. The question im asking is wad can i do?!? What shld i do?!? The problem now is not about the permission to stayover is denied by the school, or that mdm hue is very unwilling to help us. But, ironically, the problems lies with us. Most ppl did not replied to this stayover that i've organised, plus a few of them back out the last min. Sad right? Now, i dont even need to discuss with the rest whether to bother mdm hue and carry on the stayover already.
I'm rather sad abt the responses.. Firstly, shall say back about the camp that ODAC organised for us. The attendance is very bad. Many members choose not to attend it, take for eg the erhu section, because abt half of them cant make it for the camp for valid reasons, the other half also choose to avoid the camp without giving me good reasons. The rest of the CO also like that, most ppl have part-time job, and all choose not to go. Very eager of everyone to earn money.
Who can i blame on? I wld say myself. yes. the most regretful thing ive done ever since i become part of the ex-comm is to be lenient on the members.. TOO TOO lenient.. the fucking problem with me is unable to be strict and serious to others.. i maybe strict to myself abt things in life, but im unable to do the same to others..... All blames on me..
I shld have just tell them b4 the holidays that they shld come for all practices and that very valid reason for being absent for practices is needed. i Shld i have made the announcement b4 hand, and tell everyone the importance of the long practice hours during the holidays.. What we've planned is to let everyone practice hard during the holidays, so that the weaker on can catch up, and everyone can be more familiar with the songs. The songs that we are going to perform in april is not very easy, thou for experience players, it can be tackled, but not to forget that quite a few is inexperience. Moreever, a few of the comm member, as well as those experienced players have also went for work shadowing and research programs. Plus 3 members who are quitting CO, i can say that the current situation of CO is in chaos... Im very worried abt it. Either we carry on this CO well and organised, with every member enthu n looking forward to each practice, giving me good atttendance or good attitude, or we shall just disband. Im serious.
It's so difficult to have a meeting with my comm people. I dont know what to say. disappointing. 13 ppl in the comm, 2 quiting.. 1 more leaving next yr.... now left with 11ppl, out of this 11, yen nee, emily have research program, unable to make it for all the practice. So, left with 9 ppl. Sad to say, due to my incompetency, alicia and lucinda also didnt come for most practice cause they are working.. thou alicia came a few times , n lucinda who only came once. Otherwise, i hardly see them.. So now left with 7ppl. Bernice, natalie, chengzhi, sinyi, sinyee,cheryl and me. Im very dishearten by the poor attendance of the comm, i wun even think of having a meeting alr. So, the whole holidays, i didnt got the chance to talk to em. But, but, i've talk with bernice and sinyee abt such things. It's so pointless to have a meeting with so many ppl not present. So, most things i will only tell them next year when everyone have finish whatever they are busy with.
So, now that only 7/13 of the comm is present for practice, can u all think what abt the members?? 50% of the comm is present, somehow this will reflect members attendance too, 10 of the remaining members, only half of em are present these practices. pple like kuan yee, grace, kangting, shiyan are like some of the more active members le.. others like janice, hongying, still ok... but the rest, i do not want to say le. So attendance recently are like more than ard 8 to 13. I'd be very happy if im able to see more than 10ppl alr. Very disappointing.
In conclusion, why will all these happen??? Is it because it is holiday??? ppl Like to slack, go for holiday? Or take the opportunity to work and forget abt their responsibilities in their CCA. Even thou they want to work, why cant they find jobs that allow them to take offs on wed and thus for CO??? These are ppl that totally didnt have passion in CO, or that they have " forgotten". Still got a few, who daringly quitted cuz they really have no more passion in CO. Which doesnt mean that it's a bad thing. So, does this means that the others who purposely ponten CO practice for other leisure of theirs, or for work, have the intention of quitting??? sighs.
All i can say now is that i did not prepare myself for whatever have happened so far.. my lack of experience to foresee such circumstances.. I shld have say n make my stand ealier on that i do not condone such behaviour. mb, these will not have happen than..
SO MUCH i have say abt the odac camp and attendance for the holiday practice, i shall now say abt the stayover thing that ive planned on 18th. My evaluation for this failure. Yes, this stayover have been cancelled for those that reading this. Response to this stayover is not good.. only fairly ok.... Possible reasons for poor response, 1) ppl alr have planned their activities for the hols...2) ppl are not interest at all..... 3) I didnt make a proper annoucement for this stayover, and im unable to do so, due to poor attendance during the last practice. 4) This plan is too abrupt....
The stayover is cancelled not because mdm hue is not willingly to help, but due to too little ppl to stayover.. And it will not nice to bother mdm hue just for the few of us.. yep...
Im sad, disappointed abt everything so far. But, i will try to improve everything. Next year will be a better year i hope. Long entry is this.. tired am i.. sian, sad am i. =(
